Healing is never easy . I suffered through a lot to get to this point . The loneliness, abandonment, I took loses constantly, sacrificed a lot , the tiredness from being awake, &being forced to sort through horrible thoughts… so, when you see me happy, LIVING, I hope that you understand … I didn’t get here over night . I didn’t snap my fingers, or do a quick spell to get here. I put blood , sweat and many trails of tears into this . I did the work to get here . No one else , only me .I deserve to be here , so when you see me happy… let me be.